"2007 WILL be a good year too! :D" scratch that. Because it totally didn't start off well.
I wanted to sleep my day through but I just can't. And waking up at 1.45pm is considered super early when my initial plan was to just sleep until like dinner time.
What happened to the bitch that was super materialistic last time. Where did the 'I don't care about my feelings and I only care about what I own to make me happy' girl go to? At least then, I was happy; superficially. But now, I'm just so torn up inside.
I never used to like mixing around people I don't know nevertheless to say 'hanging' out with them. I just don't feel comfortable. I feel like a total stranger. Say I'm anit-social I don't care. People who know me will know I'm like that. But yet I've tried to change and go down all the way to THE OTHER SIDE of Singapore just to make you happy. And what did I get in return.
Like I said, from the start you didn't even plan to spend nye with me. And after what I told you that night, you said you wanna spend it with me BUT you wanted to go to your friends place for dinner and asked if I would wanna join. I was dead set on not going because I just wanted to spend time with you, but somehow I just felt how disappointed you were thats why I agreed.
And do you think for the first time meeting a whole bunch of people I never saw in my entire life before, I'd be able to click with them and chat like we're old time buddies? Of course I'd be the quiet one because I just don't belong in that circle of friends. And you accusing me was just totally wrong.
Things got even worse when we had nowhere to go and was stuck at THE OTHER SIDE of Singapore. You even suggested to go back to look for your friends. I mean, if all you want to do is to spend time with your friends then don't bother asking me out in the first place. I'd rather sleep at home then be stuck in that situation.
I started to get pissed but I tried to keep my cool. In the end I wanted to head home and then when you hailed the cab, you didn't get in with me- you went to find your friends at east coast. I totally lost it.
Somehow I just felt that wanting to meet me was not genuine at all. It was just to please me from what I said to you that night.
Tell me, am I the unreasonable bitch here? Seems like I'm the one "giving my 200 and only receiving 50."
Am I asking for too much? All I want is for someone to sincerely care about me and shower me with love and concern. Why, I guess it just boils down to that empty hole inside me that needs to be filled up. Its been empty for too long.
I know you'll read this. Don't run away from our problems because it'll ony worsen the situation. And I don't wish for that to happen.
**the last thing that I'd wanna write on my blog in Dec 07 would be "I spent my last nye with my ex-boyfriend."
I wanted to sleep my day through but I just can't. And waking up at 1.45pm is considered super early when my initial plan was to just sleep until like dinner time.
What happened to the bitch that was super materialistic last time. Where did the 'I don't care about my feelings and I only care about what I own to make me happy' girl go to? At least then, I was happy; superficially. But now, I'm just so torn up inside.
I never used to like mixing around people I don't know nevertheless to say 'hanging' out with them. I just don't feel comfortable. I feel like a total stranger. Say I'm anit-social I don't care. People who know me will know I'm like that. But yet I've tried to change and go down all the way to THE OTHER SIDE of Singapore just to make you happy. And what did I get in return.
Like I said, from the start you didn't even plan to spend nye with me. And after what I told you that night, you said you wanna spend it with me BUT you wanted to go to your friends place for dinner and asked if I would wanna join. I was dead set on not going because I just wanted to spend time with you, but somehow I just felt how disappointed you were thats why I agreed.
And do you think for the first time meeting a whole bunch of people I never saw in my entire life before, I'd be able to click with them and chat like we're old time buddies? Of course I'd be the quiet one because I just don't belong in that circle of friends. And you accusing me was just totally wrong.
Things got even worse when we had nowhere to go and was stuck at THE OTHER SIDE of Singapore. You even suggested to go back to look for your friends. I mean, if all you want to do is to spend time with your friends then don't bother asking me out in the first place. I'd rather sleep at home then be stuck in that situation.
I started to get pissed but I tried to keep my cool. In the end I wanted to head home and then when you hailed the cab, you didn't get in with me- you went to find your friends at east coast. I totally lost it.
Somehow I just felt that wanting to meet me was not genuine at all. It was just to please me from what I said to you that night.
Tell me, am I the unreasonable bitch here? Seems like I'm the one "giving my 200 and only receiving 50."
Am I asking for too much? All I want is for someone to sincerely care about me and shower me with love and concern. Why, I guess it just boils down to that empty hole inside me that needs to be filled up. Its been empty for too long.
I know you'll read this. Don't run away from our problems because it'll ony worsen the situation. And I don't wish for that to happen.
**the last thing that I'd wanna write on my blog in Dec 07 would be "I spent my last nye with my ex-boyfriend."
