K I - M E . B L O G S P O T . C O M

I'm bored.

Blame the gossip blogs that I read cuz they arnt updated! Grrr.

And I don't wanna post up another LV day post cuz I think I'll just get fustrated filtering out the pics. Haha.

And my tv ain't working. Lets just say its officially D-E-A-D. New one pls!

And I can't sleep cuz my hair is still wet!

Since I'm such in a writy-writy mode now I shall just blog about 1 random topic.. I just went to getty-images and this was what appeared.



Ok fine, so let me just talk some nonsense abt the topic LOVE. You can tell that I am really really bored because I NEVER EVER blog abt such random topics. OMG.

Hmm, I just thought of this. I haven't had a boyfriend for like uhm. how long? Hahaha. Pretty long I guess. And I can't be bothered to remember how long.

Its pretty funny how one always associates love with bf and gf these days. Why can't it be loving your friends and family. Speaking of that, I come from a family that doesn't express love at all. I don't hate the way I'm being brought up, but I do envy those whose parents say 'I love you' or give them hugs/kisses every now and then. Cuz I never ever had such things.

Instead, I'm constantly in an environment that is filled with sarcasm and 'hatred'. Yes, I really really envy those who have parents who are still loving and all. Sometimes I'd rather see myself being raised up single-parently rather than what I'm seeing now. A divorce will be way much better than the situation at home now. In simple terms, there is no LOVE at all.

I don't blame my parents for what I'm seeing now. But, I'm thankful that they've shown me the ugly side life. Because learning it now is definitely better than being naive and thinking that the world is a wonderful place. Cuz its not.

Whenever I'm home, I'll constantly hear complaints from both parties about one another. What am I supposed to do? All I do is listen while still trying to cope with other stuff in my life like stupid school work and stuff like that. Times like these, I really wished for a single parent. Cuz then I won't be hearing any complaints whatsoever.

See, Vic's mum is divorced and she doesnt face any of those problems I'm facing now cuz she rarely sees her dad. I'd rather it be like that if given a choice.

And why am I constantly getting pissed so easily nowadays, cuz since the day I came back from vegas the tension at home has became stronger and stronger. I know my mum needs someone to talk to and pour out all her complaints, so all I do is listen. There are times when I don't even know who to side.

The stupid tv was a problem, then comes my bro's PSLE results and selection of schools. Still a whole lot of daily problems to add on as well.

And then comes the sibling love. My brother. Who's like 6yrs younger than me. Big problem, there's no common topic. Besides, he doesnt like to talk much and he's not home most of the time so that basicially leaves me with nothing much to talk to him too. Its not that we don't love each other. It just boils down to the way we are brought up again. Not showing any love or affection to one another.

Now back to the controversial bf/gf love. You think I'd still wanna have a bf when I'm faced by relationship problems everyday? Sometimes I just tell myself I'd rather not get into all those shit so I shall just stay away from relationship stuff. And I dont understand how ppl can accommodate and give in and put up with a whole lot of nonsense their bf/gf has because I don't think I can. Why can't they just be single and be happy? You can say I don't understand because I don't have a bf but who are you to judge.

Don't get me wrong. Its not that I will never get a bf or sth. I just need like A WHOLE LOT of assurance before stepping into such stuff because I don't wanna face problems that I see everyday. That's almost enough to kill.

Its funny how I feel more and more comfortable to open up these days rather than bottle everything up and put up a false front to say I'm ok I'm fine. And I rarely blog about my emotions because I refuse to open up.

And now I'd rather be pilled up by a whole lot of work than have free time to think bout such stuff. But when I have work, I'm constantly complaining.

I love my friends! And yes, again I don't show it out. But I really really do love them esp NAD, FARA and LANCE! I'm greatful that I've found people that I can really confide into.

Lastly, I think I love superficial things. Its those stuff that make me happy most of the time. Like SHOPPING for clothes, make up, shoes etc etc. Thats just another channel for me to vent out my fustrations. Its called RETAIL THERAPY. Thats why I don't really think twice when I shop in a foul mood. Which results in spending a whole lot of unnecessary cash. Thats bad. I know!

I think I just typed a whole lot. I'm utterly bored. Yes, I have stupid FABM report and ppt due on wed and why in the world am I not doing it. BECAUSE WE ARE MEETING IN SCH TMR AT 9AM TO DO IT DUH! And the vegas slides are done already.

Oh, and my dad's fish: given birth. Like a bit laggy, but whatever. They arn't my priority.

LOVE LOVE LOVE. Yes, you dont need to show it; but its always good to!

OH YES. I can't stand ppl that constantly need a bf/gf. Thats not LOVE please. Ugh. Esp those bengs and lians. They can break up in like 1 day. OMG. Thats how they get like 30 odd bf/gfs.