K I - M E . B L O G S P O T . C O M

Great. I'm caught in a dilemma.
To go to UK for my 6mths attachment or not?

What a way to kick start my new semester! Lecture was quite boring; the classroom wasn't quite appealing -.-

And guess what. There was PT! Ugh. But thankfully, we combined class with TR02 who's class was at 11am. Otherwise we'd have to wait till like 2pm. And it wasn't even a class; it was a BRIEFING. Haha.

So after school it was bumming around in town with YJ and Linda. Shopped a little, but it was more on butt warming at Coffee Bean.

And I bought my sexy pink hair dryer already!! :D :D

Oh yes, $20 this mth again? I seriously can laugh out loud.

Okay not for the serious part.

I was like all excited about going overseas for my 6mths attachment right. And now, there's this resort all the way in UK that's willing to hire us. For 6mths. How how how?

Spoke to Mr. Pang today after school abt this. Quite a few issues that I'm very concerned about.

1) Its freaking UK; off London. In a resort. Which is kinda isolated and on its own.
2) Visa issues
3) Expenses
4) Transportation
5) The lack of company during non-working hrs
6) Safety
7) Admin issues
8) Surviving on my own
9) Groceries

There's this part of me that wants to go; but another part of me telling me that I'm not THAT independent to survive on my own out there in a foreign land.

Its like the opportunity is thrown in my face now and I don't know what to do. Like, I R-E-A-L-L-Y D-O-N-T K-N-O-W W-H-A-T T-O D-O. I haven't felt so lost in a long long time. I'm actually stressed out with this decision to make!

If I choose to go, I have to pay quite a lot. Air ticket, accommodation etc etc. And if I really really canno't survive and choose to come back. Guess what.
I WILL FAIL MY IAP AND HAVE TO RETAKE IT NEXT SEMESTER. -.-

Oh this is the resort btw. http://www.celtic-manor.com/

What's keeping me back? Another job offer by another company in SG that trains people for the coming IR and for SIA. And a project which they are involved in the building of T3. It seems interesting and the pay is better than average IAP pay. Relevant for what I wanna do next time too.

But its freaking 6mths eh. From 3 Aug to 3 Feb. You know what stuff I'm gonna miss?
-Bestie's birthday
- National day
- My birthday
- X'mas
- Lance's birthday
- New Year
- Friends in SG
- Convenient access to food, transport etc etc

But, what benefits do I get from going?
- Forced to be independent
- Greater exposure working overseas
- Deciding factor if I wanna go overseas for Uni or not
- Deciding factor if I wanna migrate in the future
- Learning how to survive on my own

Maybe I'm just not independent enough to survive on my own? I still seek the comfort of a home to go home to every day. I didn't know I was that dependent?

I don't like the feeling of being foregin. I hate change. A change in culture, people, everything. I might not be able to take it.

And it sucks that I need to sort of decide this by myself. The parents are okay with me going. They seem quite eager to see me living somewhere else for 6mths. Can they just tell me that its tooo expensive and I can't go? Saves me all the trouble right? Right.

To make things worse, I have to decide by the END OF THIS WEEK.
You know, the application form is like THERE if I decide to go. Like, they are making thing so easy for us!

And Mr. Pang had to say this "you all look too pampered to rough it out there" Made me think twice. thrice. 4 times.

Whoa I didn't realize its such a long entry already. So disorganized too. But that's exactly how I'm feeling now. C-O-N-F-U-S-E-D. Someone, HELP.